Day 20

Happy Valentine's day everyone and Happy Chinese New Years too!

Today is a good day. A weigh in day. And guess what??

I LOST 4 MORE LBS!
So total weight loss so far is 10 lbs. First goal met! :)

I worked out ever week day and I have saved the weekend for relaxing.
Now that I have gone over one hurdle I can focus on the next one. I am hoping that I can be almost 230 by the end of February. This is going to take work and continued determination, but God is really giving me strength. I could not have done any of the things I have this week without Him.

Even though I did have weight loss success this week, it has been a difficult one. Not in the sense of eating or working out, but mentally. My roommate, Lauren and I are on this journey together and she is definitely losing weight at a quicker pace than I am, and you can really tell. She looks fantastic! I on the other hand still struggle to get my jeans on, still have a muffin top, and still look like a whale.

So, I just have been giving myself a hard time because of this. I know people lose weight differently and that is normal, but I just wish I could look at myself in the mirror and really SEE the changes. I have not put on any of my clothes yet and thought, "Wow this looks so much better now!" I want to say that.

I am thankful that the numbers on the scale are still going down. That I can be thankful for.

This week I am praying that God will continue to fill me with encouragement and drive to keep this going. I have been having a life style change because I think differently about food, and I react to it being around me in a completely different way. There was one day this week when I almost had a melt down over McDonald's. I passed a friend of mine eating it and I suddenly had the biggest and most intense craving I have ever had. Luckily, my roommate and best friend, Lauren was with me and she kept me from getting any.

That is something important I learned this week, you need someone who is really going to keep you on track and hold you accountable. If Lauren had not have been there or would have allowed me to get McDonald's, I would have eaten WAY too much and felt sick and it would have ruined a lot of what I had been working on.

Moral of the story: YOU CAN'T DO THIS ALONE. You just can't, sorry to tell you. You can't do it without Jesus Christ helping you, and you can't do it without your friends and family here on earth cheering you on.

I think that is enough information for today.
Remember that you are beautiful right now even in this body, that God is walking along side you, and remember to stay active.

God bless!